Life on the Edge of the Familiar yet Unknown


Life. What is it exactly and why does it consist of so many conflicting things? It seems that the more we overthinkers think about it, the more we realize the conflict and confusion that swarms in every day life. Do the people who live the self proclaimed “stress free” life really not see these things or are they stress free because they choose to not think about the wonder and horror that greets the world every day?

I was sitting out front of my cousins house this morning, having coffee and trying to guess if the temperature had hit 100 degrees yet and wondering IF it had then why was I not sitting in the river yet. See, conflict. Happiness, sadness, joy, pain (both emotional and physical), anger, resignation and determination are just a few of the endless list that create storms within us and our worlds. I am not going to give any other specific examples because I want each soul reading this to be able to reach into themselves and wonder about their own personal conflicts and the whys that accompany them. How does it get shut out so that we carry on happily? Is anyone REALLY happy? Is it just a lot of fake happy like for Facebook, Twitter and Instagram status or is there a true happy somewhere in a far away land that GPS doesn’t take most humans to? Do we need a secret handshake? Password? Do we need to get jumped in to be in that exclusive gang? If we aren’t feeling like we are as happy and unconflicted as the rest of “normal” society does that then make us weak or mentally unstable? Does it make us cray cray or does it make us normal human beings with true and real admissions and emotions? Does either way make anyone more “real”?

I seem to have quite the knack for making anything sound confusing, perhaps I should be proud of that. Today’s confusion has been brought to you by the letter “H” and the dog spirit animal. Carry on.


About angrypumpkinoutofcontrol

Who am I? You know, oddly enough I don’t know what to say. I am a single (again) mom in So Cal. I am trying to get myself and my 3 boys through life. I am a cynical romantic. I am opinionated and generally not afraid to share said opinions. I am a daughter, probably not always the greatest but it’s my 1st time being a daughter and I’m still learning. I am a friend, this I am generally better at aside from the occasional slip from grace. I am funny (I hear), intelligent (it’s why my BFF chose me) and a neat freak with a streak of OCD. I am told that I scare men and little kids. I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up except happy, at peace, stable. I have many good people in my life and many people that have walked out. Focus on what you have. I have no idea the things I should write here. What do you people want from me?

2 responses »

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s