Well of course I deleted the last post. GEEZ-sus, Eyeore and I are starting to sound the same sometimes. So, those of you that were graced with a reading of my last post is…it is ALL absolutely fucking true!! Well, it is/was/will continue to be HOWEVER, as I was crafting my crafty crafts at 3am, I started to think about a woman I know, a friend that has been through hell the last week and my shit is so very insignificant. I am sure many of you knew this post or admission was coming so you just sat back and waited. This is HUMBLE PIE for breakfast. I will not release this woman’s identity and will leave it up to her as to whether she comments or not. My job is to simply speak my mind and heart.
I am sure not all of you heard, I certainly hadn’t until she made a comment regarding a wreath being delivered to her and how she “worked in that office where the shooting was”. Last Tuesday, a man walked in to a urology office in Reno, NV. with a gun. He shot and killed a doctor, injured another doctor and a patient and then took his own life. I am certainly not one to speculate nor pass judgement on this man as I carry too much empathy for the world to start with. I can however pass my meager encouragement on to this friend and maybe it will give her something to hold on to and pass to those she knows.
My friend, it sounded almost strange in my own head to hear that word, friend, until I started thinking about how much you have been witness to in my life over and despite all the years. Things that most don’t think about regularly anyways. Little things, big things, just anything. I then started to think about what I have seen, heard and been witness to regarding you. The most important are these…
You are an intelligent woman who is charismatic in an occasionally snippy way. That is NOT a bad thing I might add! I have watched you wrap the big wigs around your finger on occasion. You are kind as a whole. Willing to give of yourself. You are strong. Nobody could have worked “THERE” that long without being so (all that damn pink). Most importantly, in my opinion, you have a wicked sense of humor and fun side that cannot be beat! If nothing else, this is what will keep you together. I have no problem imagining you giving to others and not realizing (at first) that you are healing yourself in the process. It may seem dark at times but like they say, imagine it as the place where those ugly little worm like things go before they emerge as butterflies.
My thoughts are with you.